i kept physiacal relationship with my bf till 1 year.i did sex almost 100 times with my bf during the 1 year.after one year we broke up our relation and after it i did not do sex with any one till yet, now i’m 24 years and i ll have to marry sum1else due to my family and i want to ask these questions:
i’m muslim, i can tell neighter my parents nor my future husband about my past.bt at wedding night my future husband will know that i’m not virgin and he will leave me and my family will not bear this, i do not want to commit suicide.so what i’m suppose to do now?
since last 5 years i did not do sex,will my vagina come back to its position?.
will my future husband know that i’m not virgin?
can i spend happy life without telling him(future husband) the truth?any excuse?like i used to do exercise,running etc?
i cant go for the surgery.so give me some other solution?
i kw i ll not bleed at wedding night now but for not having sex since last 5 years my vagina will become tight?
plzzz answer me these 6 question


first off please dont kill yourself!!!!
the surgery is painfull by all accounts but if ur 100% serious mayb it is ur only option
i dont know mayb he wont notice? if its his first time he aswel he will be just as nervous and hopefully wont notice
mayb u could tell him if u trust him enough?
no ur vagina will not be that tight !
u have had sex n must be knowing how tight n painful it is !
ur vagina will not be that tight it is ok to not bleed as many girls r born without a vagina !
n the vagins is also half torn since the blood comes through it during periods so its not big deal !
u got to worry abt tightness u can tighten ur muscles during the time of penetration which helps to tighten n he may feel u r a virgin !
i have heard that many muslim girls keep a part of lamb ( mutton ) flesh inside their vagina which is very doft n thin n has a small amunt of blood its the best idea but consult someone !
or if ur husband is free n modern tell him u used a dildo ( if u dont know wat is it google it ) n u can also tell u use tampoons n u forgot to remove it 1 day ! tampoons is a very good excuse !
dont panic be confident n look innocent n act as if u r shy n never touched a boy in ur life n u dont know anything abt sex !
ok i care abt u dont do anything stupid BEST OF LUCK !